Keeping the Faith

It has been awhile since I wrote in the journal.  It will be 9 months since the official filing of our non-profit, and I am feeling the birthing pains.  I am still feeling the uncertainty of all of it.  

There have been strides, to be sure.  We have some new meetings, the first HA (Heroin anonymous) meeting ever in Peoria is now being hosted at the Community House, the CA (Cocaine anonymous) group has hit the ground running, and the Yoga is, if not helping others, helping me to connect to my body and breath as I move through this very unsettling process of starting up this non-profit.

I wrote in the last post that I needed to let go of something, and I am feeling the loss of the connection with my online spiritual community generated in the Consciousness Explorations conversations.  Having come from the hard sciences, obtaining a PhD from the Center for Molecular and Behavioral Neuroscience at Rutgers, it might be surprising that I believe consciousness to be primary to the material world.  Perhaps it is more of a direct interplay, like the edge of a living jelly fish, and the force of consciousness is molding it, yet the jellyfish itself has properties that respond to the external forces. 

So that brings me to uncertainty and fear.  In the Consciousness Explorations course, we spent some time examining and banishing fears.  But the more I wonder about the emotion of fear, the more I feel it is not destined to be negative, that I can recognize that in the space of uncertainty I can bring in an image of what I am hoping to create.

Reflection On Working in the Unknown

A lot of what I have created thus far has been through the process of envisioning the possibilities that would lead to a healthy community.   What comes first in this envisioning process for me is to tap into the feelings of what I truly desire.  In my case, I want to see, feel and experience loving community.  I can envision people coming together, helping each other.  I see neighbors knowing one another and working together to help ease the burdens of life.  I see each of us helping our neighbors during crisis situations, but also sharing in good conversation, meals and activities that bring laughter.

Then there may be more specifics that come into clarity.  These are based on the problems I see in front of me. If I do this now these problems can seem overwhelming.  But when envisioning, the goal is to stay connected to a bigger truth.  To know that things will work themselves out, if slowly.   

When fear creeps in I can tell myself, this possibility is not what my soul chooses to experience.  Instead I choose to experience the highest possibilities.  I choose to take the high road in my thinking.

Through this constant realignment of my thoughts and feelings with what I am seeking to create I sharpen my intuitive guidance.  I inch closer to the ideal that I am wanting to bring into reality.

​Consciousness is powerful.  Intention is the key to creation.