Friendship

The deep desire for loving and supportive community, combined with the desire to reduce suffering, generated the project "The Community House Network".  As I move towards a new opening, one that has shifted more deeply towards a goal of deeping creative expression, within myself, and holding space in community to bring the highly creative people of this world together to share their gifts, I find myself grieving what the vision held that I could not fulfill.

Each soul that crossed my path throughout these 6 years has been the hope of loving connection, healing and community.  Each time the demons within each of us got the upperhand, I fell a bit further into a state of despair.  How much can one person take?  I am sure there are many others who could have done much better, and yet, perhaps this was all about me finding my own limits and boundaries.

Disentangling from the neediness of those who would still see me as their primary survival resource has been painful and full of emotional turmoil, for me and those in the community. I have been called a liar, a traitor, and a number of other unpleasant names in this last round of change.  Nevertheless, it is what I have to do for my own sanity.  

This has been the most lonely time of all.  Those who I thought I could help, are now nowhere to be found.  Realizing that I was never a friend, never an equal, but always a resource, is a hard pill to swallow.

I made a decision that this next phase will be all about equal realtionships and collaboration.  Let it be so!

​From John 15:15-17

15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other.